Opening Up Emotionally

Being in touch with emotional experiences is essential to personal growth and healthy relationships. If we fear or reject emotions, numbing our feeling experience, the protective layers blunt our ability to connect. While difficult, opening up emotionally has many blessings. Learning emotional openness is both a skill and a necessity to flourish.

Buried Emotion

Feelings desperately avoided become fearsome monsters. They frighten us. When we repeatedly ignore and avoid emotions, emotional experiences create discomfort confusing and disrupting our life. As a child, we felt emotion, crying when discomforted; but when messages from the adult world, discouraged expressions of emotion, providing little or no guidance for processing discomfort, we dull experience and avoid feeling. We copy the examples, running from feelings, burying experience, and living buried in cold non-feeling layers of logic.

David Richo Ph.D. shares in his wonderful book Five Things We Cannot Change how his childhood experience impacted his relationship with emotion. “I see a connection to my childhood, with anger being expressed in abusive, violent ways and so I become frightened by rage. My powerlessness in childhood now makes me afraid of healthy anger” (2006).

Our childhoods may be a blessing or a curse to lifelong relationship with emotions. We learn from our parents skills of regulation, attunement, and openness; or numbing, avoidance and denial.

Vulnerability and Opening up Emotionally

We can’t run around emotionally open to the world. Unfortunately, many dishonor our openness, attacking vulnerabilities, and manipulating sensitivities. Those worthy of our openness attune to our feelings, reflect our experience, and embrace the connection. Others reject and ridicule, using intimate knowledge to hurt.

Charles Ford, a psychiatrist in Birmingham, Alabama and author of several books on human deceit explains that “the young child is unaware of how his or her demeanor and emotions are signaled to other persons.” Our emotional disclosures “can be used by others for manipulative purposes.” The person who does not learn this difficult lesson, and repeatedly exposes these vulnerabilities “is often prey to the unscrupulous.” He continues, “thus, as a social skill, and necessary defense mechanism, the child is progressively taught and learns to present a face to the world that is not necessarily accurate of the internal self” (2004, p. 16).

There are times for emotional openness and times for protections. When we effectively learn a balance of expression and protection, we flourish in both dangerous and safe environments.

People don’t have descriptive tags for our examination. We don’t know who is safe and who is dangerous. Offering a window to our souls is a slow process of building trust. Accordingly, we must tentatively offer a few bits and pieces, cautiously watching if potential lovers and friends will cherish or abuse our guarded secrets.

“Feelings we desperately hide become fearsome monsters.”
~T. Franklin Murphy

Unfeeling Logic

As an adult, many of us live in the bleak greyness of words. The emotional outbursts of others ignite uncomfortable swirls that we rather not feel. We point and laugh, denigrating the empath as broken, not whole like the unfeeling monsters that we are.

Logic is nice. It offers helpful insights to assist courageous voyages into the unknown. However, logic is only a single element of wisdom; left alone it fails. In addition to logic, we need emotions to guide. In dialectical behavior therapy, therapists refer to wise mind as using both the logical and emotional mind.

Emotional Openness and Relationships

Can we change this closed-hearted world? Are we destined to an existence where an emoji is the depth of emotional connection? We need much more than a cartoon smile to connect.

Ada Lambert wrote in her difficult to find book Evolution of Love that “marriages in which the major emphasis is on the cortex would be dry, like accounting, in which loss and gain are the central issue. All warmth, emotion, and tenderness would be missing” (1997, page 60).

Lambert later explains that “our brain is a close-knit fabric of interlacing qualities that foster each other and turn each other on. Evolution, which takes its job seriously, builds a complex network of neural highways, which connect rationality to emotionality, desires to deliberation, eroticism to wisdom, so that optimal functioning is achieved in a human couple’s married life over many years” (page 104).

While these neural connections are crucial, they develop in varying degrees of strength, depending on our environments. Mindful attention to emotion aides the connection process. Giving attention to our feeling experience and empathetically attuning to our partners strengthens neuronal connection that utilize healthy emotion in decision making.

A Healthy Relationship With Our Own Emotions

Daniel Siegel, a clinical professor of psychiatry at the UCLA School of Medicine, explains that “by developing the ability to focus our attention on our internal world, we are picking up a ‘scalpel’ we can use to re-sculpt our neural pathways, stimulating the growth of areas of the brain that are crucial to mental health” (2010, location 143).

Emotional openness begins with a conscious, compassionate relationship with our own emotional world, then we expand to the emotional world of others, and allowing a carefully selected safe group of others to intimately participate in our feeling experience of living.

We need more emotionally intimate connections, escaping the “me first” psychology and joining in a togetherness and belonging movement. Others are extremely important. Our mental health relies on healthy connections, not logical dismissals. We must bathe in the swirling world of emotions, seeking connections where emotional expression is acceptable. We can enhance our journey by expanding our emotional vocabularies, understanding the nuances of feeling, and social niceties of expression.

The journey of sharing and giving through opening up emotionally connects our internal world to the internal world of others, supporting and validating each other during struggles and joys. We can engage in these intimacies without a frightening threat to our delicate ego. Emotions are important. We can, even as adults, explore the world of emotions. We can feel and enjoy the emotional ups and downs of living—connecting, sharing and exploring through emotional openness.

Resources:

Lambert, A. (1997). The Evolution of Love. Praeger; First Edition

Ford, C.V. (2004). Lying and Self-Deception in Health and Disease. In Editor I. Nykliek, Editor, L. Temoshok, & A. Vingerhoets (Eds.) Emotional Expression and Health: Advances in Theory, Assessment and Clinical Applications. Routledge; 1st edition

Richo, D. (2006). Five Things We Cannot Change; And The Happiness We Find By Embracing Them. Shambhala; Reprint edition

Siegel, D. J. (2010). Mindsight: The New Science of Personal Transformation. Bantam; Reprint edition.